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❤️‍🔥🫂 Thank you 🥹

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Beautiful Jou🫂😔

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❤️‍🩹 Thank you, Say.

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Your writing is beautiful, eloquent, and raw. Loss and trauma make life so hard to manage basic functions. I can't write when numb from grief. Writing to your friend is such a healthy idea.

I am so sorry. What a tragic loss.

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Thank you, Michele. That means so so much to me.

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Very beautiful and moving

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Thank you, Karl.

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Beautiful words and feelings as always Jenovia. I wish I could’ve met Ali. I’m sure we would’ve vibed.

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Achingly beautiful and heartfelt. I am so glad you didn't settle for less than the love you deserve. May your future be bright and brilliant, as Ali was, please never stop writing.

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Thank you Shire, that means so much to me. I love your name btw!!

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Ditto! Hope you have an awesome day!

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Thank you, you too!

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Beautifully written.

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I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart ached reading your story. But I'm happy you got to have such a deep and impactful connection with Ali.

I'm sure he's watching over you with great pride. Happy that you feel alive again, and that you didn't settle.

P.S. I wish you all the best things and for the love of God, never. stop. writing. :)

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Thank you so much, Andrea. Your comment made we well up.

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What a heartfelt and vulnerable piece Jenovia. I was viscerally moved by your words. The writing is beautiful and elegant, and yet at the same time so very raw and powerful.

I’m sorry for your loss.

But I’m happy for your gain.

And as always I’m envious of your writing prowess.

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Thank you, Micheal. As always, your support means so much.

I hope it inspires others to write their loved ones that have passed onto to their next adventure especially when they are in the throes of grief.

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Jenovia, this is utterly beautiful. ❤️ I loved reading it so much. Your friendship sounds like such a gift, a real light in your life at such a dark time. I'm so glad to hear you're now in another, different but equally well-deserved era with your love. Thank you so much for sharing your heart, your pain, and your love in this vulnerable and eloquent way - I was so moved reading each line, it's truly powerful writing. Sending you my love from Shetland, friend. x

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Thank you so much, Charlene. Thank you for always leaving the most beautiful, thoughtful comments. You are also a bright light.

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Jenovia . . . it is hard to know how to respond to something like that. It's so much to take in.

Like Ali, it seems.

And yet, you gave me a good sense of who he was, and who he is, still, in your heart.

Ali would be thrilled that you are no longer desultory. I don't know you well, but I am very glad of that, too.

Thank you for holding on to life - if just barely, at times. And for holding out for the Real Thing, and continuing to believe in Magic.

It's nice to be reminded that Spectacular is out there. . . .

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It is so much.

A lot of grief, a lot of love, a lot of life. I've learned to embrace it all.

Spectacular is out there and it is waiting to be grabbed up by each and every one of us.

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“I had forgotten how vehemently grief demands to be seen and heard.” Yes. Yes yes. Grief always wins, even if for years we are able to suffocate it under more fragile postures.

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I once heard someone described this way: they make everything about anything better, just by being there. That was Ali. I feel that truth here.

I’m once again moved to tears by your words, your unvarnished, painful, beautiful truth. It’s an honor to be connected to you 🤍

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That was Ali! I could cry reading that line, Caroline. 🥹 Thank you for being a witness, I am eternally grateful 🩵 and so very honored.

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i missed this one!! how!! "He is the reason why I never settled down with anyone else. He is the reason why I refused to set down roots in tandem with another. There was a particular feeling I was holding out for, a desire that I had defined in the deepest parts of me that still believed in magic despite all that was burned asunder in my life." DO I FEEL THIS. I had to wait 36 years. for both of us to struggle with substance abuse and come out on the other side. ready to love. what a weird miraculous journey life is. gosh I love everything about this so much

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I love that so much, Natalie! 🥹 That makes me so happy for you both. I'm so proud of you. You've built such a gorgeous life together with the kitties.

Life is so very weird and miraculous. It will always shock and stun me in all the ways and I love that because it reminds me that my heart is still alive, still warm, still brave enough to feel it all.

🫂❤️‍🔥

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i missed this one!! how!! "He is the reason why I never settled down with anyone else. He is the reason why I refused to set down roots in tandem with another. There was a particular feeling I was holding out for, a desire that I had defined in the deepest parts of me that still believed in magic despite all that was burned asunder in my life." DO I FEEL THIS. I had to wait 36 years. for both of us to struggle with substance abuse and come out on the other side. ready to love. what a weird miraculous journey life is. gosh I love everything about this so much

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So glad you’re traveling with a compass and a companion, Jenovia.

Thank you for sharing this gift of a friendship. And thank you too for this beautiful, tender reminder that we must pay attention to our grief.

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Thank you, Holly 🥹❤️‍🔥🫂

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